villa de leyva

what a beautiful day! I woke up yesterday morning and decided to leave for the weekend. it is completely ridiculous for me to be in colombia for so long and not to have experienced other cities.
Arrived somewhat late only to discover that every single hotel was full. But there was one... way up in the woods. It is weird coming from a dangerous city to a safe city. The mindset doesn`t change as easily. i was scared shitless walking up by myself into the woods. i confess, i turned back twice. But later i am going to go hiking up in the forest and it is completely safe. (unless i trip again and land on a stick that pierces my heart, not completely ruled out)


random thoughts from reading last night, formatted in an email to Julie:

One essay i just read was about disarming the world and using sanctions, or economic means in order to enforce law. A world with out war and weapons? The idea seemed almost absurd to me at first. Then the more i thought about it the more i realized how indoctrinated i have been to thinking that war is inevitable. It has really opened my eyes not only to the inhumanity of war (which i have always believed) but the impracticality. The unreasonableness! Such as mutally assured destruction: The idea that we fear being destroyed so we create more and more weapons in order to prevent our destruction? " In a perfected nuclear deterrence, the knowledge in a disarmed world that rearmament potentially means extinction would become the deterrent" We know we can become extinct. That is the reason that nuclear weapons should stop becing created. Because the only deterence we depend on now is the sanity of military officials, of the humanity of governments, and counting on that there are no mistakes made. Not a good track record..


How much war we could prevent if our foriegn policy was actually peace! Arundhati Roy gave a really great example of how the American forces threw down packaged meals for the millions of starved people after we bombed them. and asked " is pride a luxury only the rich are entitled to?" Or the idea of America ever having tried peace as a foriegn policy. as so many claim that `force is the only thing "they" respect. And how absurd that thought is, yet voiced with one collective idea that America must kill in order to prevent hatred.
You were right about the abortion blog. definetly masochistic. I view the interaction positive in only the sense that i researched and expanded my ideas on the topic. Other than that i deleted emails with out even reading them from the other woman....
And it finally stopped raining out. i can go outside an play in the sunshine! at least for ten minutes before it starts storming again.