memory

First off, I can't figure out the right way to eat muffins. Similar to large cupcakes, you cannot fit a proper bit into your mouth unless you bite if off the side or the top. Then it crumbles all over you. Everytime.
I have two different themes. One is, truth vs fiction with memories. "For memory is more about what we believe happened than about what actually took place" Susan Kaiser.
the book is on memories of the dictatorship by teenagers in Argentina that did not directly experience it. ie born right after it fell. The question that keeps coming back is one i have thought about before. Things people tell themselves to be 'ok' with the dictatorship are usually based on lies or infactual information. Because truthfully, how can one reconcile complicity with murder or torture? While there are many books exploring the memory of the victims, i am looking for one that examines what th ruling class / rich / military tell themselves, and how this period of time is remembered for them.
first innacuracy: "the economy at least, was good then" this is a big fat lie. the government brought in neo liberal policies, sky rocketed the debt, took over private debt, sold control of natural resources -- imf policies, decreased welfare spending. poverty increased, wealth for the wealthy increased, the economy tanked. I suppose it could be true then that the economy was ok. Because for them, it was. hmmm. interesting. but why do people say that when they are middle class, and they did not benefit from it? is it rich class envy? the idea that if only they were smarter then they, too, could take christmas in miami? However, - the economy did not flourish, and those policies paved the groundwork for the big crash in 2001.
2. "At least you could walk down the streets and be safe". It is interesting that people use this excuse considering 30,000 people were murdered. I tend to see a correlation between silent crime and chaos crime. Which is worse.
To be continued... i have been distracted.